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I still have yet to find an apartment.

I have an increasing interest in working for Disney just so I can score free passes. =/



My back is feeling pretty good lately, which is awesome. Once I move I wont be able to afford going to the chiropractor twice a week, or even once a week. So it feels really good to feel really good.

I packed a couple things so far for my trip to Georgia. I am so so so so so excited.

I get so giddy during the ~holiday~ season. I just feel like I have this great opportunity to remind people that I still love them, and for them to do the same for me. The only time I'm ever happier than this is at cornerstone with my best friends.

I've realized lately, as my phone has no longer rang as much as it once did. That I am totally okay with not talking to people all day. I love being able to sit down at my computer and initiate a conversation with my best friend and it be meaningful and interesting and laughable. I love not having to somewhat "report in" to a boyfriend or significant other all the time. Don't get me wrong I miss all of the hugs and cuddling and kisses (well from certain boys anyways, haha). But to be only responsible for myself, and not for the feelings of anyone else is really great. I don't have to factor anyone else in. Eventually, and hopefully not soon, someone will meet me and think "this is her, this is HER".


Gosh, all of my livejournal entries are so hilarious. I am always so hilarious. I should never try to be serious ever. Outside of the internet I rarely am these days. haha. THESE DAYS.

lolzzzzz.

I just made my secret santa gifts! They're adorable and I love them.

I'm almost finished Christmas shopping which is awesome. Because the entire month of December is going to be ridiculous for me.

Max has been really awesome. He was laughing at all of my vinyl toys the other day and we were trying to come up with a better term for them so they don't sound like sex toys. We decided that blind box toys were the best terminology. We've been welding a ton lately in the shop together which is nice. He's working on this model of an arbor that is at his parents house, and I am just finishing up making metal spheres.

I found three records in the basement of old Disney movie soundtracks! Bedknobs and Broomsticks is one of them! I was really really excited to find them down there. I want to listen to them a couple times, and then frame them to hang in my apartment.

Less than a month until I go to Nikki and Sarah's! That's all any of us talk about really because we're so excited. (That and I'm so busy I can barely keep a conversation going for more than ten minutes) I'm bringing their christmas presents with me so we can have our own little early christmas. We're trying to plan out everything we're going to do. So far we have visiting Katie for her birthday (!!!!), going to the beach and hearing the ocean again, going mini golfing, going to a show, and going to bdubs. And some major hangouts.

I bought the rest of the seasons of Gilmore Girls today because they were on sale at Target, and I'm a sucker for that show. It was my favorite show in high school! I have too many memories attached to it! That and all of the pop culture references throughout its existence made it really hilarious.

OH! OH! OH! And I bought the movie Up. I've probably watched it at least seven times since buying it. One of the best Pixar movies to date. I think it might rank with Toy Story.

I'm only two records shy of owning all of the Black Flag vinyl. After that I'll move into getting colored editions and stuff like that. Eventually I'll frame it all and have this massive wall of Black Flag vinyl because there's just that much of it.

I can't wait for my hair to growwwww. It's a cute bob right now, but dang I want long hair again. Maybe by march it'll be long. I kind of want it to be pink again. =/

My hurrrr is growin'. It's a pretty cute bob now. ^_^ Yay!

My grandma and grandpa from my dad's side are going to be here tonight. They both have doctor's appointments at Mayo clinic so they're coming up to visit after those.

I finally got a different set-up for my record player. It's so nice because now I have a place to put the books I'm currently reading and a place for my records I'm currently putting into rotation.

Bought the cutest scarf, socks, and shirt at T.J. Maxx the other day! I was looking at rat stuff at PetSmart and T.J. Maxx is next door to that so I went there just to look around. I generally go straight for the shoes because I always find really cute flats there. I wasn't very lucky though and there were only some plain black ones, and I already have some super similar to them. I ended up going through all the clearance stuff and found the cutest sheer tank top to wear while I'm in Georgia visiting Nikki and Sarah. I bought a really heavy knit infinity scarf in a dark magenta color. It's super pretty and goes well with my coat! The socks I bought were on clearance because they were ~halloween kind. But that wasn't true at all because they were Betsey Johnson socks and she always has spiders and things in her stuff. So there were two pairs in the set, both were black but one pair had bats in sparkly silver and pink on them, and the other had sparkly pink spiderwebs on them with silver spiders. Cute cute cute.

While I was at petsmart I saw the cutest hamster/mouse cage! It was one of those plastic kinds that has all the crazy tunnels and stuff. BUT! It was all over sparkly pink! I almost bought it because I kind of want to get a mouse and he would fit in there easily. We'll see.

My found object welding assignment is going to be awesome. I'm making some tethered clouds and birds. So the clouds will sort of be like balloons. I think I'm going to paint it in pastel colors just because the clouds need to be ~light and having steel look ~light is really really difficult. =/ But I'm excited because in this project I'm really implementing the idea of defying gravity in welding, which is really cool.

I think that's it for today!

Seeya.

So, after going to Disney World for over 4 years in a row, I've been collecting the Disney Vinylmation collections the years I'm there and they are released. It's super fun because they're blind boxes, and every year when I get doubles, my dad buys them off me to have his own little collection in his office at work to remind him of our Florida trips!

Anyways, I totally just found out that in a month they're releasing the freaking cutest collection. So, I might bend my rules of only buying them when I'm in Florida to buying them online when they come out. (I don't even know if you can buy them online, since I always just buy them at the parks.)

THEY LOOK LIKE THIS THOUGH AND THEY ARE ADORABLE.



guhhhhhhhhh.



lolololol. I take horrible photobooth photos and get completely embarrassed taking them in my house.

I got my meds upped on friday. I feel awesome. I feel normal. I might actually have a clean room for once because I actually want to do things now.

I might get rid of my cell phone plan and just get a prepaid deal. The only people that call me are my work, and my family. I don't text people anymore, and people don't text me. I shouldn't pay for something I don't use.

I've been listening to a lot of chill music lately. I've been not hanging out with anyone, and I like it. I'm totally fine with it. I come home and listen to records and sketch.

My photography is getting better. I'm learning so many new things in my class and I'm excited to show people my photographs. Tomorrow I'll be spending 4 hours in the dark room working and it's going to be awesome.

I'm working on a bubble sculpture right now and the welding is taking forever because I'm somewhat awful at that part. I need to buy a auto darkening helmet and everything would be fine.

English is seriously sucking right now because I just fail at writing in a professional manner.

I want a boyfriend but I'm not actively looking for one. Does that even make sense? Like, I want to effortlessly fall into love with someone. Maybe I'll get lucky. I just want someone to be on this journey with me. A journey of finding myself and living my life. I don't need someone to hangout with all the time. I don't need someone to complain to. I just want someone to hug when my meds don't save me all the time. On those days that fall through the cracks in the medication and I can't get out of bed because the entire world seems to daunting. I just want some cute lovable somebody that will not get offended at all the stupid things I say and laugh at my dumb jokes.

We'll see what happens.



Advising day is on Dec. 3rd. Both parents are coming which will be good. I'm going to rent an apartment that day. I'll be moving in on the 1st. My last day at work is the 31st of December. I haven't found a new job yet.



Good luck Amanda.

Name: Amanda P.
Age: 18
Location: Loring Park, Minneapolis, Minnesota, USA.
Height: 5'2"
Favorite Color: Purple.
Favorite Food: Pizza.
Favorite Band: Minus the Bear
One Thing People Don't Know About You: I love my grandparent's, but rarely see them. If I could at this very moment, I would be sitting on a couch with my grandma Elaine, watching her favorite Johnny Depp movies and eating homemade popsicles.


Tell me about you!!

I met up with Jhyle at Target last night. We oogled at some boy and made jokes with a poor employee that had to mop up a huge spill of faux cranberry juice that was right in front of the ice cream. We got ice cream, cookies, soda, and ordered pizza while on the bus home. Jhyle got a bucket and some drain-o, as well as some sheets and some brand new boots. I... bought hair ties, all the food (I owe her for like four meals, its ridic.), and thats it. haha.

Today, I need to make a trip to Target again to get more hangers, a couple multi-pant hangers, and.... something else, I forget. I also need to run to the Midtown Global Market and give Joe all of his stuff he requested from me.

I'm dying my hair dark pink again today. It's pastel pink and blonde right now.


OH! I remembered what else I need to get. A new tooth brush, its been a couple months, time for a brand spanking new 88 cent tooth brush, AND a new scrubbie for in the shower. Am I the only one that religiously buy new ones of those? I just really don't enjoy the idea that my dead skin cells probably build up in the center, and I'm continuously holding it. Ew.

Been listening to a lot of dance music. :D CSS, Santogold, M.I.A., Daft Punk, Bella, Bloc Party, Natalie Portman's Shaved Head, T.I., Kanye West, etc.

Oh gosh.

Sarah and I didn't get tickets to the FOB show because I have no money after buying more work clothes and completely forgetting. :(

I went to class this morning for critique and it was the most boring critique ever. I just sat there eating my banana and granola staring at everyone, maybe throwing a pointer in here or there. I threw some cylinders on the wheel and ended up with clay all over my shoes because the slip bucket tipped over. Oops. Walked home and ate my left over sandwich from yesterday. Now I've been doing laundry for the past two hours and cleaning my closet out, and then I'm going to do the rest of my apartment tonight and then tomorrow. I really need to buy a new Nalgene or something equivalent because unlike most people, I constantly need something to drink. I'm ALWAYS thirsty. So, since I don't have my nalgene, I always end up going to the fridge and downing all of my soy milk, or all of my orange juice, and lately its been my Dr. Pepper. THIS IS WHY I DON'T KEEP DR. PEPPER IN THE HOUSE, ITS GONE WITHIN DAYS. :/ Too bad Target doesn't supply real Nalgenes. I have to wait for a day that my parents decide to come say hi and have them take me to REI so I can get a bike rack and a new nalgene.

SO JAZZED FOR DISNEY WORLD. YUSSSSSSSS. TOWER OF TERROR HERE I COME! CHIK-FIL-A EVERY DAY HEY-O.

I had a flashback from high school today. Apparently, a coworker of mine, told a group of other coworkers that I was, "not at all pretty". D: How rude. It was such an exact jab too. Not a half hearted, I-just-don't-care-for-you, jab, but a calculated particular insult. Oh well, she has more issues than should be allowed for one person.

I've been writing letters tonight to friends, and I'm mailing them out tomorrow. Maybe you're a lucky one! But, I'm not telling.

I went to Whole Foods tonight and bought some organic Gala apples, some bananas, and some body lotion. Whole foods has the best smelling lotion ever. Rosemary Mint is AMAZING, and also cheap. I went to Chipotle for dinner and got the steak tacos. Yum!

I really want to move into a different apartment. I really liked the one I looked at thats owned by the same people that run my building. It was a one bedroom with basically the same square footage as mine, just divided differently. It had a smaller closet and living room space, and had a bedroom instead. I just really liked it because the bedroom was small and so cozy. I'm super tempted to take apart my bed frame and stick it in my closet and convert my closet into a bedroom. Just so I could have this really comfy, cozy place to sleep. But, I can't because I spent all that money on a bed frame, and I need to use it. So, in search of a new apartment this summer is it. Hopefully Sarah will move up here and I can look for something with her. I know that Jhyle really wants to live with me and find some place, but I kind of don't want to live with her because there's always so much drama within her life. Not so much anymore because she doesn't have a boyfriend, but... still. There is a huge age difference between us too, and that kind of makes it a little weird when it comes to friends outside of our shared friends. Anyways. I'm looking. Because I want a cute little bedroom to have to myself and paint a really rich dark magenta color and only ever light the room with string lights and lamps and candles and have it just really really cozy. I want my life to be separate from my sleeping area. I don't want to fall asleep with bikes, and sewing machines, and TVs, and couches in there. I feel like I'm always sleeping in the middle of someone's living room. :[

Three cans of Dr. Pepper, half of a large cheese pizza, and one slice of cinnamon dessert pizza and I'm still up.

I've sketched the layout of the future donut shop, as well as the logo, and front of the shop. It is going to be awesome. No lie.



It really bums me out that people are so rude sometimes. I either take it as they have some other shit going on, or they just need to grow up.

I'm super glad my life isn't dramatastic. I have good friends here and good friends far away. I might not go out to parties every weekend, but the time I do spend with my friends is really great. Like when Jhyle and I go to Bryant Lake Bowl and eat really gross food and talk about boys, and when Jesse and I sit in an empty drawing studio and talk about comics, and when Joe and I sit his apartment and watch movies and he analyzes them, and when Sarah and I meet up in some town for a show and have the time of our lives, and when Nikki, KT, Sarah, and everyone meet up at Cornerstone every year.

I'm sooooo pumped for spring to come. I told my mom yesterday about me possibly flying out to Buffalo, NY to hangout with Frank and the rest of RFW. She still wonders why I don't date Frank, but she was cool with me going.

I bought luggage yesterday for all of my summer trips. haha. I found myself yesterday wanting to pack....

I told my mom yesterday as well that I had decided to open a donut shop/gallery. She was really cool about it, which was nice. Even when I told her that I was planning on opening it in Boston. So, after I get done with my associates in Fine Arts and in Business, I think I'm going to move out to Boston and get a job and go to school to finish my degrees and get bachelors degrees. So, next summer, I'll be living in Boston. That's kind of really exciting.

Hair is still pink. Still love it. The hilarious part is, is that only skeezy guys like it, which ends up being way awkward while waiting for a bus home from work when I'm dressed in heels and a skirt and red lipstick. I probably look like I'm begging to be teased or hit on. So, just so everyone on the internet knows, AMANDA IS NOT A SLUT. I'M MORE OF A TEASE THAN ANYTHING. I'M A PRUDE. ITS JUST HOW IT WORKS. DON'T ASK.


I've started sanding my bike down. Apparently my bike has been blue, orange, and the original paint job was black with grey and white detailing. hahaha. I should be wearing a face mask while doing this, but I left mine in the sculpture shop today. :/ I took off the front brake to try and take off the handle bars so I could flip them to be temporary bull-horn like bars while I find some that suit more of what I want, but I couldn't because I have no arm muscles for it. That and the idiot kid who had my bike previously, decided that it was cool just to spray paint the shit out of it with only taking off the wheels and not even sanding the thing. DUMB. Anyways, my bike is going to be the shit. Seriously. When I got to Buffalo, people's jaws will drop. Sparkly turquoise frame, white fork, silver spokes/hubs/rims (keeping black surly hub though), brand new gun metal crank set, orange glow-in-the-dark pedals with power grips (my teeny feet seem to enjoy those more), purple chain/grips, white vittoria back tire, hotpink gran compe front tire, white saddle, and gun metal front rack. HELL YES. So stoked. I am never going to get rid of this bike. Ever. I'm pumped to go to Buffalo in September and ride with all the guys. (Maybe by then some girls will join in on the fun.)

I need to shower. Too much biking, working, studio time, and over all running around. Joe is so freaking pumped that I found a good vegan croissant recipe. Score! We're going to make them sometime this week.

My cat is yelling at me in my lap. I smell like basil. I have shin splints from walking to school and everywhere in bad shoes. I'm paying back my parents with most of my paycheck. After that, tattoos and internet plz.

Found a vegan croissant recipe for Joe. It's going to take a lot of time to make them, but I'm sure they'll be worth it.

I've been painting and cleaning all morning and dancing around my apartment listening to Damien Jurado and Frank Sinatra. Gosh I'm lame.

Today I'm going to buy supplies to make fifty or so cupcakes. Rainbow cupcakes, and cookies and cream cupcakes. I need to take the bus to Kowalski's and get cake flour, vanilla, food coloring, powdered sugar, oreos, and some more butter.

I also need to clean my apartment. It is literally in shambles because of yeterdays events.

Today reminded me of why I am where I am.

Girls that are bullies are worthless. I'm so fucking glad that I experienced it though. Because they gave me the drive to succeed in ways that I probably wouldn't have if not for them. I will always know that I'm a cut above them, and that I'll always be better off.

I saved every address of every single girl that had ever bullied me in high school.

One day, when I'm famous, or exactly where I want to be in life, I'll mail them a letter. With a picture of myself, a resume, and a letter explaining how their childish antics that caused my heart so much damage in high school, made me into someone I would never want to change.

Oh golly miss Molly.

I'm tired, and just want to lay in bed. I probably could. I mean its only 9AM, and I don't have class until 12. But there are things I need to do, like make no meat meat loaf, and shower. I need to do my dishes, and clean the disaster that is my apartment.

I'm not sure how working full time for a while is going to 'go over' with me. I'm sure it'll work for a bit, but

Geeze its been a while since I've posted. Uhmmm. I got a bike! yayyyyy. And a vacuum. And my apartment right now is a mess. And I got a job at Punch. And I have an interview with Saks tomorrow at 3PM. I'll have two jobs, and will be able to pay for my rent, and finally be able to have cable and internet, and pay for my cell phone, and pay my parents back their 400 bucks....

Jonah, the guy that sold me the bike, is a pretty cool dude. He goes to MCTC and is only a tad taller than I am. Which is awesome, short people rule.


And I don't know what else to say... Bye!

Jesse said he missed me over the long weekend. hahaha. He talked to his brother about how he has to move up here just to date me, and apparently his brother is already moving up here next fall. Awk city. I don't think I'll date him, he's one of those hardcore tough guys. I tried one of those, apparently they are not my type. (Yes, I know that that is generalizing.)

I talked more to Joe today, I'm glad I met him. He'll be a good friend to have. I'm officially obsessed with his mustache, its the most awkward awesome thing ever. The fact that he can even pull it off is amazing.

Jhyle and I have officially labeled ourselves as best friends. It is pretty cute. Jesse was laughing at us about it, but its cool. My mom thinks its weird because she's ten years older than I am, but I swear we could be sisters. We're going out for dinner tonight at Punch. She's never had it before, and its may favorite place to eat!

My ankles are killing me today. I wore new shoes and walked all the way to school in them, thus giving me huge blisters on the backs of my ankles by the time I got there. I have bandaids on them right now and changed into different shoes, but DANG. They hurt really bad.

Jesse, Jhyle, Joe, Ashley, and I are all planning on going to the CSI exhibit at the science museum this month. We get to solve a murder I think. haha.


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TELL ME YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE MEAL. You know, the meal you crave to eat when you've had a long day at work or school and just want to plop down on the couch and have someone hand you? THAT MEAL. And go!

I'm getting a job at a bakery making cupcakes and bread and coffee. Once I complete my two weeks at Holiday I'm getting a mohawk and dying my hair turquoise and hotpink and purple and blonde. I think it'll be a good change. I've been desperately wanting to do my hair for a long time now, and with the job I have currently, that's not an option. Ashley was great and had her friend Alicia hook me up with a job at her bakery. I interview sometime next week.

I had my last therapy appointment this past friday. It went well for the most part. I'm going to see if I can start seeing a different therapist. I want to talk to someone who wants to hear about my life and is genuinely interested in my well being. Not some man who is more concerned with the insurance company and me getting "better" as fast as possible and to get me out of there. My meds are really helping though. I don't cry nearly as much, and I don't freak out. I'm actually really happy.

Jhyle and I went to the We All Have Hooks For Hands show at the Walker on Thursday. Earlier that day we went and toured all the new installments plus all of the permanent collections. We snickered some and were constantly finding penises in all the work. It was odd.

We went to Pancheros last Tuesday and saw the most gorgeous tattooed boy to exist. He smokes and I don't mind one bit. I love the smell of smoke. I love the way your clothes smell when you hug a boy that smokes. Not overwhelmingly smokey, but just a hint so you remember he's there. I guess it's comforting.

I think I'm going to get a beagle! Which is really exciting. And I'm almost done decorating my apartment. I got my new rugs on Friday so my toes aren't so cold in the morning, and my mom just called and said she bought me some new canisters for my kitchen. Tomorrow I'm going to Lowe's to see how much some cinder blocks and boards are to make some cheap shelves for my living room. I don't wan to make anymore holes in the walls. :/ I'll probably modge podge them in comic books. I need to buy some glass for my coffee table. I think Jesse said something about being able to get me some for cheap.

I love working in the art department and getting tons of free art supplies. It is ridiculously handy.